Chapter Two;

It all began when I was just fourteen years old. It was the summer holidays where I had six weeks off in between the transition of school years. A close friend had just been on holiday and wanted to give me a little gift she had picked up for me. I invited her over to my house, and we spent the entire time messing around on a computer, talking to people on an instant messenger, MSN.
A boy I used to talk to started talking to us. At first it was just the usual chatter, e.g. 'hi how are you?' But it progressed into flirting. He eventually asked me if I would be willing to meet up with him and see how we got along because he really liked me. I decided I really liked him too, and after much debate with Anne - the friend I had over - I decided that I would meet up with him. The conditions were that Anne was to come, and I was to decide where we would meet.
Now I know how foolish this was, meeting up with someone I had met once before - if that - but aged fourteen with raging hormones and feeling flattered by any guy that would take interest in me, I didn't care. I thought I was being sensible by taking the precautions of having a friend with me and meeting in a public place. Looking back now, I realise how stupid this was. I wouldn't change it now, but I do sometimes think that I should have had more sense.
When the day to meet Matthew finally arrived, Anne and I chatted excitedly about what it was going to be like, and what kind of friend he was going to bring for Anne to talk to. We were meeting them at our local recreational centre, and since it was a hot and sunny day we decided to take the ten minute walk down there.
We got there an hour before we heard anything from Matthew. We waited around anxiously, before deciding to phone him and see where he was and how long he'd be. I was too shy to even speak on the phone, so I handed it to Anne and got her to phone Matt. As soon as he answered she hung up, realising that he was standing almost directly opposite us. We ran away and giggled like a pair of ten year olds. They noticed us straight away, and walked up to us. We spent the entire day making awkward conversation either with each other or with our own friends. We basically ignored each other and spoke to our friends more than we spoke to each other. Despite this, I wanted to see him again. I didn't know why, but there was something about Matthew that drew me to him.
A few days later, we had agreed to meet up again. Matthew was going to bring a different friend however, because the one he had already brought had tried to ask me out behind his back. I didn't tell Matthew, but it must have been obvious that he liked me because Matthew was cautious about him coming near me the whole time we were together. Not that it mattered, Matthew didn't come near me himself. We were both shy and childish.
TBC..

Chapter One;

I am just nineteen years of age, but my story is long enough for me to be in my mid thirties. I have made many mistakes; some I have learnt from, some I have not. I have had my entire life change in a matter of minutes. I have given up almost everything for my life to be the way it is today, and I have had to put any plans I had made for myself on hold.
One harsh reality of life is that things change. That is something none of us can control, no matter how hard we try. When these things change, we have two options - sit and sulk, hoping things will go back to what they were before, or change with them and make the most of it. Sometimes people don't have a choice in which one of those routes to take.
My life has been a series of lessons, lessons I have learnt from. Whether they have been bad or good experiences is a completely different story. I wouldn't be who I am today if I hadn't lived the life I have.
I was a shy schoolgirl, I kept myself to myself and I was extremely quiet around new people. I had a small selection of friends who were the only people I would bother with outside of my family. I was a bright student and concentrated on my school work more than my social life. I was always the type of person who was afraid of change. I would never make any decisions - I found choices too difficult just in case I made the wrong one. I was far from daring, the most I had ever done was ride my bicycle without a helmet. I hated new things. I was happy with the way my life was and didn't see why any changes would need to be made, so they were usually not welcome when they happened. Little did I know, but my life was going to flip completely, and I was going to find myself an entire new person.
Change can happen in a matter of seconds, and sometimes the biggest changes are usually made in minutes. Whether that be finding out you have an illness, gaining a disability from an accident, or creating a baby, etc. Even the most carefully planned out events can cause change. Every action has a reaction.
If someone came up to me when I was fourteen, sat me down, and explained to me what would happen to me and the changes that would occur in my life during the next five years I would have laughed in their face. Little did I know, but there were dramatic changes about to be made to my life.

Notes-

• "I am only nineteen years of age, but my story is long enough for me to be in my mid thirties.." - Opening line. First chapter about my life, lessons I've learnt, etc..
• Chapter Two; all started when I was fourteen. Explain how I met James*, feelings, what I thought.. Connor* and I break up, how I turn to James*..
• Three; My relationship with James*, meeting up at cinema/local park, fell for him quick but he didn't fall for me - using me for sex.
• Four; Our break up. Thoughts, feelings, etc.
• Five; Getting over him and moving on with life.. Always at back of my head.
• Six; Friends of James' add me and try to get me to meet up with them. Keep telling them no, tease them by saying I'm still James' deep down. Story of his friends trying their best with me. I was sixteen.
• Seven; James starts talking to me again. Feelings all come back. Getting to know him again. Meet up for first time in years - what happened, feelings, etc.
• Eight; Beginning of our relationship, stuff we got up to.. Wrote I love you on his back, he didn't say it back.
• Nine; Spent a night with him, he told me he loves me. Spent more nights with him.. Fell deep in love.
• Ten; spent almost all my time with him. We had a fun relationship and first serious relationship he'd had, we were in love.
• Eleven; Found out I was pregnant. Telling him, telling families. Pregnancy.
• Twelve; Having Lilia*. Being new parents.
• Thirteen; Being a family of three.. Find out I'm pregnant again.
• Fourteen; Reactions, the pregnancy, adjusting to the idea of having two babies.
• Fifteen; We start drifting. His drinking and choosing everything over me and baby. The break up.
• Sixteen; Life after the break up and being a single mum. Feelings still there. Ruining any chances of getting back.
• Seventeen; having Tyler*. Changing to being a mother of two, James being there and all that happened.
• Eighteen; falling back in love with eachother. Thinking we'd be a family.. Ruining things and being broken.
• Nineteen; Summary- realise now I need no one but my kids and the amazing family I already have, etc. James' loss, not mine.

NAMES;

James - Darren

Me - Laura

Lilia - Lily

Connor - Matthew

Tyler - TJ.